hi guys, i just dunno who to talk to..and im not sure if i should post if here or not. i just realised that i have no one to talk to about this.. Xin Ni wants a break up. she said she wants a pause in our relationship and honestly, i dunno wat that means.. it started with a quarrel that we had b4 she left for london. actually its regarding our different points of view. Well, basically, i doubted about her love on me, coz i noticed some changes for quite some time.. trust me, i can feel it after 3+ years with her.. and i con fronted her, and she noes it herself. and she's just thinking into a more realistic person now. she wants a good future for her, she is always thinking of career, and me not being good enough, thats probably about it. so the thing is, she is being much more realistic now. i noe she doesnt want a repeat of her parents unhappy marriage. She also mentioned about me being too dependant on her, but the truth is, i really like to do things with her, she gives me motivation. i noe i depend on her on studies, but other than that, i just like to share with her, and do stuffs together.I noe i have said some mean things to her, and i felt terrible. i have apologised. We write emails to each other, so we don let our emotions take control of our decisions. but still, she wants a break. i really dunno wat should i do now. i have agreed on the pause thing, but i told her to think about it for the next 17 days untill she come back, then we will discuss about it seriously. but i just feel really terrible.. I really miss the Xin Ni that used to wait for me during classes, buy me food whenever im hungry, be by my side whenever i needed her, scold me when i do something wrong.. the one that loved me for the past 3 years. No one is at fault here i noe, but i just wanna fight for her back. i really don wanna lose her. i just...want her back.
-tohyuen-
im sorry if im not supposed to post this here. i just wanna express myself. sorry.
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toh yuen you have to hang in there. relationships have a way of changing and you have to evolve with it. Xi Ni might be thinking about her future due to her family problems she is being practical i guess. but if you really want her you have to ask yourself truly what changed in the last year and what can you do to make it better for you relationship. simple things like send her flowers contribute more to the relationship. and better yet start forming a plan on your future and secure it and show her that you are a confident person and you love her very much . now is the time you both reflect on what you both want and if you are going to be together for a long time both of you should contribute to the relationship. so try your best and leave the rest in gods hands.sorry i cant call you but i hope you work things out. we all love you both equally and any indian babies you will have in the future. hehehehe.
Aarthi
hey i'm really sorry to hear this...
U guys were the best 2gthr..!
Well maybe she is thinking bout both your future and u nvr know..it might be for the best...but do not let her go easily n u shld fight for it, even then if it doesn't work out, i'm really sorry...we are here for u toh, don't be afraid to call any1 of us, we know ur bestie isn't around..but we still are..! Ok, tc n don't worry, i'm preety sure wutever it is..it'll work out for the best for u both...
hey dude,
this is my opinion.You say you rely on her in your studies.When you think studies,you think future.Im thinking she doubts that you could support her in the future,as you being the weaker one.But hey!... thats not all to it.The future doesnt only rely on studies alone mate! And even if it does, step up! Work harder.. be better than her...in studies I mean.Prove to her that you could be her safety net in the future..you could be the provider,the supporter.. you get what I mean?
And if im wrong,show her her how much you love her.Prove to her that you're actually THE ONE.
who's edris? haha. nvm, thanks for your comments peeps, all is well. Nothing to worry about la.She just matured to another level where she thinks more realistic like all gals do. Edris u guessed it right, and i supposed she was thinking that way too then. and thats y i have been thinking back then, that i should really step up and just prove it to her. just gotta close up the gap between her n me la.. But wat i noe is, atleast i feel happy thinking this way is, i have been a great boyfriend, and i doubt anyone would treat her better than me. And i have always loved her as much as before. So since i dont doubt my love for her, i just have to make sure she doesnt lose faith and love in me.
Oh ya and also, I made a mistake by saying i rely on her on my studies.. I just like studying with her, coz i hate studying and i really find it hard to study myself. I just prefer studying with a company thats willing to help me out thats all. I just like doing stuffs with her like i said before, thats just me!^^
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