44th anniversary

Hey guys, sorry for not posting here that frequent, i hope everyone is doing great! Well im aware that most of the people that blogs here are very busy with their Uni life, so don be too harsh aarthi!haha.. Well, i really wish to go back to the life im supposed to be living now!
After such a long break of not blogging here, i guess i have to update myself a little huh.. The year 2008 hasnt been really good to me, well actually i supposed its not all bad, its just i have been living a terrible n unrealistic life for the past few years.. Bottom line is, i have not improved much... And i really regret it.. I wont go on details of wat made me think this way, coz its just too much to write, but yeah, i can say that for once, in my life, i finally get the tight slaps on my face which i truly deserves.. well not literally slaps, i mean confrontation..with reality. I have wasted too much time not doing anything right. 2 years of education and $24k down the drain. 3 and a half years (44 months to be exact) of relationship, actually today is supposed to be my 44th month anniversary with her, we always celebrate on the ninth of every month.. all gone becoz of the stupid ridiculous, unrealistic and most of all, immature life. Ofcoz i cant say that the 2 years of college life has been totally wasted, coz i have met u guys, but other than that, is IS all down the drain..
Enough of that i guess. Well, wat made me think this way u ask, first, my uni application thingy didnt work out so well like i expected, so i have no other choices but to do locally in some "least popular" Uni, but other than that, its becoz of the course i wanna take which is Civil engineering.. very few unis offer that course here, and also financial matters. But no worries, as long as i can study wat i want and get atleast honours, it wont be a problem..i hope.. 2nd thing is, i think u guys should've already guessed it, im single. People say going overseas does change a person's thinking. Well its sort of a mutual thingy, i mean she has fallen out of love, wat can i do? So i guess this is mutual aint it?haha.. I still love her.. in fact i still love her as much as the first day we got together. But now, i just have to let her go, and enjoy the single life that i didnt get to have for the past few years!haha... Well, i also c this as an opportunity for me to get serious on myself and prioritize things. So, i have planned to get my degree n then do masters at Australia and then work with my bro.(My bro is also a civil engineer and is working there now) And throughout the few years of studying, i have promised myself not to get involved in a serious relationship, coz i don wan distractions. Dating or jsut a fling would be alright i guess haha.. Cmon im a guy!I wanna have fun too right!lol.. And after all that, when im ready, and if i still love her, i will go for her then..haha. In my dreams... LOL. I just wish i could c the future now.. ^^

Thats y i said, it has been a tough month for me, everything just happened so sudden n unexpectedly.. But i take it as a GREAT lesson. just had to learn it the hard way.. But i will always have people the trust me, and people that love me. My true friends, and more importantly, my family.

OMG im sorry it really sounded like a speech/story telling huh.lol.. But i think its a part of my life that i will never forget, and will always take it as a lesson. Well, people learn from history right?

All these happened 2 weeks ago.. so im fine now.. don worry! although i still get emo once in a while when i think her and the times we had... Its heartbreaking, but i will get over with it.
oops i guess i did went into details huh..lol..realll really sorry for such a LONG LONG post!!*^^*
So people, any gals to intro?LOL!

~Tohyuen~