what lies behind

hullo again everyone.

needless to say, another hectic weekend awaits me. well, i had my first aid exam today. not too bad, i think ive only made one error, and i sure hope i pass the paper good. anyway, im good in all aspects here.

funny how everyone only blogs as a method to inform everyone something like a public TEXT MESSAGE. well, i should take at least half the blame as i too take it for granted that other than some simple notice, there is no necessity to blog anything substantial here. today ill hopefully change that perspective.

just some food for thought : trust ;

has anyone realised how easily we place so much trust in strangers and then call them our close friends ? how we then take it for granted things will go smoothly. how we never ever expect there to be any problems along the way. in most cases, the fluid flows smoothly across its mould, but there are times when it just leaks out. thing is, when one has this moment, it feels like life comes crashing down.

sometimes i blame myself. why place so much trust and hope in others ? we're not that weak. we can hold it all in while still managing happy lives. thing is, it isnt the same when you have someone to share it with. no need for a partner of any sort, just a friend that will kindly lend his or her ear. thing is, it isnt often that such sincere people come in our lives.

in my own, ive found only a handful; mentioning names isnt really of importance here. thing is, sometimes i wish i was a little more closed up. i wish i could just curl up and become a ball and bounce away alone and enjoy some peace. but i never do. i choose to confide in people and when something stupid happens, everything feels like shit.

okay im not having an emo period. im just biting on the reality that BEHIND EVERY JOKE LIES SOME TRUTH.

thing is, of the late, some of the people ive met here are getting on my nerves more often than not. and you guys yourselves have never seen me at my full-blown anger. i dont want to explode for the wrong reasons. but you know how pissed i was when you guys applied some cream on my cheeks in the car in langkawi. well, take that, times it by 20 and pffft. * all blown up and pissed *

geeez.

aarthi, friendly reminder ! im skyping you at 3 - 4 pm my time. not yours. so dont be smart and come online 8 hours in advance. =)

love love,

Aj.